Heyy, im back again!

Hey, back again.

So, few new things been goin on. I think i've decided that i really am moving out of my moms house and into my dads house because i cant stand my moms house anymore. My sister Sarah is the school whore and a suspected drug abuser, my sister Julie is a total bitch and is on Halo 24/7, my mom doesnt give a crap about anyone but herself, and then there's me. All crammed in that little house! I want to move out right after my birthday on friday the 13th in June, which is also cool because its the beginning of summer. My situation at school isnt so good. I have friends, yes, but barely any close ones, but that doesnt even matter because I'm just moving schools anyway and hoping to make new friends. My girlfriend came over yesterday, which was wonderful because I always find my self needing to see her. She's the light of my life! Our relationship together has now lasted almost 8 months, and i just pray It will never have a stopping point. I still worry about things I know I shouldnt worry about. I've also been told not to worry about them, but I do, and I hate it, It's as if i cant control that fear. I still havent cut or attempted suicide in these almost 15 years I've been living. Dont think I havent thought about it, because I have. Life if scary right now, so many things can push me over the edge and make me fall to pieces. Im practically almost at tears right now for reasons I'm not too sure of. Thankfully whenever I think of cutting, slashing, suicide, or anything, I next think of my girlfriend, my dad, and his girlfriend. These are by far the 3 most important people in my life. My girlfriend is the glue keeping me held together and happy, and I would do absolutely anything to let her know I'll always love her.

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